When Everything Around You Seems False

     Eckhart Tolle says that when we do not like someone, it is our ego struggling for survival.  Of course, that is what the ego does.  We take others' inventory.  We may be right, and yet, only the ego is what is threatened.
     Still, I see a lot around me that makes no sense.  I see people clamoring for spiritual success and prestige in the eyes of their peers in their insular community.  I see so much of this in the Meher Baba world.  It is strange.  They line up to embrace someone, just because they met Meher Baba, but not the people who met Meher Baba, the ones who they approve of.  I see so much unpalatable behavior around the Meher Center, that I find it utterly shocking and disappointing.  I wonder how they can be this stupid, this insane, this ridiculous. 
     I realize that my ego is judging all of this, but I know deep down that this is all sick.  It is all so strange to me.  I see the egos of others, so desperate to defend their important stature, perceived by self or others.  I see them play into the game.  I observe, and it sickens me, literally.
     I see the hypocrisy, the lack of morals and ethics, the lack of compassion or insight.  There is no one in that entire community that I could reach out to, that would understand anything I am saying, because they are so caught in the 'bull shit.'
     Again, I know this is ego, which makes me perceive this way, and yet it is so dark and false, that it saddens me.  I wish one person could see the insanity.  It would give me some hope about it, some ease to the horror of it, but I see people who are supposedly intelligent, playing into these silly things, these games. 
     I realize there is nothing I can do about it, and I have to just let go of it, and just walk away from it.  I need to let go.  I have no power, and I do feel a sense of separation, but in a good way.  There are so many agendas going on, that it baffles me, and not one bit of it is honest or sincere.  If it is, it is very naïve.